Inspiration - or not

So I've been listening and looking out these weeks... contemplating, meditating, honestly just asking and learning trying to find an answer that i liked.
Then it hit me.
It's not about what I LIKED!
If it was up to what I liked... well then I'd just arrange that i'd live a super constant inspired life and then yeah, it would be easy. wouldn't it?
Hmmmm. Well obviously. And just as obviously, if that were the case then Hashem wouldn't have to create people. We would all be like malachim, where we always are inspired and feel close to Hashem, and always do what He wants.
But He did create people. Because He wants us to be people. That is - uninspired, physical, maybe even uninterested people. And even so, to do what He wants because we know it is right, and because we know that deep down, somewhere maybe in a hidden place, we really are essentially connected to Him and actually love him.
Inspiration, living as Chabad Chassidim, with concepts like Rebbe, farbrengens, chassidus - that's a bonus. It's just a plus that we get to try to make our avodah more meaningful. But the point is not the inspiration. Nope. (yep, that article posted by cmbc - that's the answer...)
Sorry for the disappointment.
I feel it too.

And I wish you the greatest success in fulfilling the ultimate purpose of Creation.
It's up to you. I mean - me.
Moshiach Now!